I’m currently teaching a summer enrichment program at a local high school in Richmond. It’s actually a great course, and I wish they offered it at every single school. It is more catered toward the honors/AP students who want to get ahead. In other words, it’s where the smart students become even more adroit with their onomatopoeias, their personifications, and most importantly, their ongoing desire to learn learn learn about the world world world.

Once, a teacher from my own high school said to me, “AP kids–they don’t think! It’s like robots just regurgitating information and when you ask another question they all panic and it’s like bam!” I understand where he’s coming from, but I thought and still do think it’s very flawed. Perhaps he’s just not teaching the critical thinking skills or as educators love to call it–climbing up the Bloom’s Taxonomy ladder.

Anyhow, this entire experience has been rewarding and challenging as I try to find ways to challenge the students. So, what the hell does Happy Birthday Jello have to do with teaching an enrichment program you ask?

***

I slouch over my laptop on a dark oak desk, sized too wide for my frame. I am clicking the Refresh button on my Firefox browser for the latest pins on Pinterest.com beneath “Humor”. I come across some mediocre memes and some worthy of an almost chuckle, a short-lived exhalation in staccato bursts. Two of my students race across my periphery.

“Ms. Bui, I came up with something for you.” My incoming senior, hair blunt and ash brown, squeaks off the Expo dry erase cap. She writes on my board MS. HBJ. “This is your thug name.”

“Oh god.” My eyes still on my laptop. I finally glance up. “What is HBJ?”

“You don’t know?” Her arms flailing, brown eyes round. “Happy Birthday Jello!”

***

Let’s back track for a bit, like two weeks kind of a bit. I tell my students tons of stories and if I know you–I’ve probably talked about you. No worries  no names were hurt during this process; I’ve kept everyone anonymous with my favorite reference “my friend.”

I’ve told my students about my family’s tradition and how we’d have Happy Birthday Jello at all our family parties. I grew up not really thinking much about this amalgamation of food coloring and flavors. Then I started inviting friends over and their turning down of the Happy Birthday Jello started to get me thinking.

I started realizing maybe it’s not just a Vietnamese thing–then the horrific epiphany: oh shit my family’s weird. Thinking back, none of my friend’s families ate Happy Birthday Jello. On birthdays they’d have cake, and on holidays they’d order dessert or bake. Granted my family does it cake, we’re not martians. We just like to have our Happy Birthday Cake Jello on the side too. You know, like an option, a plan B, a sidekick.

Personally, it’s not one of my favorite things to eat. I usually do it to make my mom happy. I remember being a sophomore in high school when my mom offered to make Jello for my teachers before the holiday break. This was a special occasion–this was not Happy Birthday Jello. This, was Christmas Jello.

“Aw mom it’s okay.” The 16-year old version of me said. I was trying really hard to get out of it.

“Just give it to them. Here, I’ll even put it in the ziplock back for you. How many teachers do you have?”

“Six.” I knew I had lost the battle.

Vietnamese mothers are not like the ones you see wearing an ugly sweater on a Coca-Cola commercial baking cookies with her children. My mother didn’t understand paying a lot for gift wrap, let alone give Christmas Jello in a fancy bag. I could have frisbee’d that Jello and really hurt someone in the face come to think about it.

So I dreaded and even became anxious giving my teachers these Christmas Jellos. Most of my female ones were ecstatic, receiving such “treat.” Really though, by the time the Christmas Jello hung out in my Jansport in 5th period it was gliding along, leaving its thin film of sugar on the ever so classy ziplock bag. Then I got to 6th period.

Today I use my 6th period history teacher to teach the word monotony. He marveled a framed photo of George and Barbara Bush. He became upset when I would fall asleep in class when it was he who turned off all the lights and held us hostage with the droning of his voice OHMMMMMMM.

So I gave him the jello and he plucks it by the tiny corner of the bag. “Uh, thank you.”

I don’t exactly remember what I did, but if I may dare say I know myself best, I probably was 1 relieved and 2 stalked away with a hunched shoulder.

***

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Who would’ve ever thought Happy Birthday Jello would make it this far in my life. Hm, the wonder to ponder.

<3 Bui


It’s been a while since I’ve watched, listened, or read something that has given me chills. I think the last time that happened was 2 years ago when I was writing a blog about a Lupe Fiasco song. Damn.

Writing is amazing. There’s always an underlying subconscious waiting to be unraveled and written.

So, I was recently offered (last-minute) a teaching assignment at a local summer school. It’s an AP/Honors/SAT prep class for English Language Arts. It reminded me of Father Vien, a Vietnamese Catholic priest from the documentary A Village Called Versailles. It took me back to that auditorium at UC Merced when I attended a conference and his words were “When opportunity arises, will you be ready?”

I had been looking for a summer job but nothing worked out. So I was just going to go on an artistic hiatus and read and write like crazy. Then the opportunity came, and I decided I’d be ready. Kind of anyway.

Teaching is undeniably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. It exhausts and frustrates me. At the same time, it challenges me every. single. day.

So I came across this video while doing some prep work to teach Ray Bradbury’s Fahrenheit 451. I just admire his dedication and unwillingness to give up despite rejection letter after letter.

circa 2001

Gosh I read this in Ms. Gunderson’s 7th grade English class more than 10 years ago. Nothing’s better than picking up the same copy you read at 12 and teaching from the same book to your current students. More importantly, check out that awesome handwriting.

<3 Bui


When I was a kid, I used to have this weird phobia of losing my memory. I think this is why I kept a journal from 8th grade through college so that in the unlikely event that my mind would go blank, I could at least have my writing. You’re probably thinking well this rings a bell and yes that’s because I secretly wroteThe Notebook and Nicholas Sparks is still paying me on the side. How do you think I could afford to teach?

Anyhow, I’m getting all weird with the whole “what if I lose my memory” ordeal again. More so, what if I’ll never ever remember what it was like to be done with my first year of teaching. As if I write this blog five days later will truly change anything, but I’m OCD with this time thing. Just the same reason why I prefer to run on the treadmill is because I like to track the distance and etc…

The substitute did a little prayer for me in his note for my class.

So tomorrow will be the last day of school. I can’t believe this year is about to end. I mean, yeah I really do believe it but hot damn! Trying to think back at the “highlights” of this year…

  • Month 1 August: I got up in the middle of the night and started teaching in the dark. Like, in my pajamas and began pacing at the foot of the bed, lecturing about rules and expectations. No, I do not sleep walk. No, I do not sleep talk. One may recognize me as the furry pokemon called Snorlax when I sleep. It also didn’t help that I was staying at a friend’s place, so they all thought I was nuts.
  • Month 3 October: I think I was still suffering from anxiety at this point. I don’t know why the hell I’d come home and work from 4-11. Why? Why? Why? We did go through cases of wine much quicker. Thank god for the buy 6 and save 15% off deal. God. Bless. Safeway.
  • Month ? Springtime: Let’s be real I don’t truly keep track of the months. That was just for dramatic effect earlier on. I think I had taken a day off and seriously just went to buy a blender. I know, I know. Most people will go lounge or buy themselves brunch. Not me. I stayed in, and drove to two different targets across the East Bay because they ran out of blenders at the first one. Since when did lots of people start buying a blender anyway? My student texted me “Ms. Bui why aren’t you here to teach us.” Obviously having freak outs = finding the perfect blender day.

Trying to sneak Empathy 101 in every activity. We had to share our secrets anonymously

  • Later on: So the students got more and more comfortable with me I guess. Not that one would typically describe me as “intimidating” or “mean.” I got a lot of fun questions. “Ms. Bui, you pass the blunt huh” “Ms. Bui, are you married? You got kids?” “No? Well we just want you to be happy.” “You got a boyfriend?” and most importantly “HE BLACK?!”
  • Later on again: Tiffany came to visit me for my birthday and ended up going to work with me for a day. It was kinda neat since they were all “is that your friend Ms. Bui?” I know, teachers actually have friends. They asked her the funniest questions. “Did you guys ever fight over a guy?” Tiffany and I kind of looked at each other like uh not really. I replied, “We actually have really different taste in guys.” Then I forgot about being in teacher-mode. “Wait, why am I even telling you guys about this!”
  • Sometime after the half-way point: The calls home. So I made a point to be very diligent about communicating with parents. I was determined, even if all I could say was “she did no homework” or “bad grades” in Spanish, I would at least be able to say something to the parents. My favorite part of this determination was the fact that I had this entire speech down right? Like had taken notes and bullet points to mention to the parents. Usually the conversation would go like this:

Hello?

Hi this is Senora Bui at Kennedy High School

Yes?

Yes may I please speak with Senor/Senora____? I am the English teacher of ______

Ohh.

Excuse my Spanish. It is not very good.

Ohh it’s okay They’ll throw in a very kind laugh to break any tension. Or sometimes they may say something way too quickly for me to understand, in which then I laugh as if I understand.

I just wanted to say that your son/daughter is doing very well in school. He/She is diligent, nice, and does all of his/her work. He/She helps his/her class mates too.

Oh great! That’s so good to hear.

Okay but so I did not anticipate the “transition” or “closing” of the conversation. Obviously I would then proceed to laugh like an idiot because I did not know how else to fill up the awkward silence.

Okay if you have questions just give me a call

Oh thank you for calling!

Yes, okay. Uh. Good morning! Bye!

By good morning, yes, I meant to say good night.

I eventually learned how to resolve this problem by bribing my student with brownies so he could teach me some phrases.

  • Later later on: So I finally felt comfortable letting my guard down a bit with my juniors because they’re more mature. I read them one of my blogs. I know, what the hell was I thinking right? They can’t know that I’m human. What am I, like crazy? But then during one of my professional developments the facilitator mentioned that our (awesome) art teacher is actually a professional artist himself. She made a point that students need to see their teachers modeling their content in ways that are applicable and even (dare I say) COOL! So I was like whatever then–writing could be totally cool and what other why to exemplify that other than this awesome blog. Then I forgot I had some “bad” words on there. THEY DIED hahahaah. So hello students, if you’re reading this I’m glad you’re at least reading since it’ll help with your decoding and comprehension skills.

Anyhow, I would not trade this experience for the world. I’m sharing the funnier moments with you guys now, but there have been days where I just let myself cry for a bit. Pick myself up, and then get ready to pick up eggs after school or prepare for 6th period even though 5th period just tore me apart.

Yet, the good days have outweighed the bad.

Be back soon. Much more to share.

<3 Bui

I've been up here for almost six months now. I definitely am loving the bay area and how much being in a different environment can motivate you to do so many things outside of your comfort zone. I wish I had taken more advantage of southern cali and had been more adventurous, but I figure it'll still be there when I visit. Thought I'd share some of my neat explorations in the bay area for the past 6 months. I know I'm not usually a photo blogger because I like to do that on Facebook, but consolidating these into a mini blog is a nice way to reflect. Side note: I taught the word consolidating today. to combine together. I can't turn off teacher mode. Napa Valley. My friend Viet came to visit with his friends and we were able to tag along. The weather was gorgeous and it's really only an hour away from me. It's just so peaceful and all you see are vast acres of perfectly plotted greens. Broadway in Chinatown. I always feel at home here. We had gone to this Teach for America event where we had a picnic and played kickball in an Oakland park. I had never seen so many trees... and being a forest-deprived child, I had to run and be in the trees. Berkeley is pretty serious about their farmer's market. Just a nice way to spend Saturday afternoon. Critique on the history of Richmond. There is very much resentment toward these companies--they will spill money into TFA and donate laptops--yet they are the cause of the toxic soil and polution that give most of my students asthma. I saw this at a local community event (that was also a few blocks from a wasteland) and was instantly drawn. My weekend nights are usually spent here. Of course we had to travel to suburbia to pick out pumpkins in 80 degree weather. I loved every moment of it. Soo Berkeley. My "desk." Making sure I write each of my theater students a personalized Christmas card. Probably my favorite holiday photo thus far. It's a Christmas tree solely built from shopping carts sprinkled with some shiny lights and ornaments. I love the leaves here. Esp that little star-shaped green one is somewhat equivalent of a four leaf clover. The beautiful Point Reyes Station shore in the north bay. Absolutely stunning. Obviously we had to take a stroll and then set up a picnic to enjoy our brie, salami, bread, and cabernet in shot cups. I can't wait to map out more adventures here. Hope you enjoyed the photos! Until I get hired as a photographer for TIME, <3 Bui


Drove a good six hours to get back to Berkeley today. Smoothest drive ever actually while coming across this olllld track. I used to replay this album when I was 12.

Cheers to the first week of 2012. Looking forward to be back in the classroom manana.

<3 Bui

Happy new year everyone!

I got to spend my evening with some my favorite people in the world, so I couldn't have asked for a better new years.

So 2012 will be the year of the dragon (as of January 23rd anyway). I keep telling everyone that I have a gut feeling it has to be a great year for us. Whether the world ends or not, I'm gonna end with a bang. It's probably a placebo effect but if it's going to work then I can live with it.

I usually like to keep my resolutions very brief. Like one at a time only type of brief. In 2008 I told myself that I'd make an effort to keep in touch with those I truly cared about. As in when I say "Yeah let's hang out" I really meant it. I've been pretty good about it these past few years--making a drive to see a friend or texting people randomly when something reminds me of them.

I try to set goals that will make me become more habitual, so I think this year I will rebuild my bank account and health. I'm proud of saying I ran a 1/2 marathon but I'd be prouder to say that I still run habitually. I just need to be better about me.

Anyhow, I'm ready to take on the year! Turning 24 in a few months and it's going to be even better than 23!!

<3 Bui

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